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Posted by Em @ 9:11 pm EDT | Permalink | 8 Comments

Heart?

A question:

How can the Heart, so strong and powerful and such a dominating force in our lives be all that and at the same time so fragile and easily injured?

what is that?

I feel it looming upon me again

Posted by Em @ 8:53 pm EDT | Permalink | 9 Comments

Jinxed

So yeah, I actually said the words "I may try only working full time hours for a while and see how it feels, no 48 or 60 hour work weeks with the child support coming in". What was I thinking???????? I did not get a child support payment this week. It comes from the state every two weeks, the payroll dept. sends it to them, the state sends it to me. Not this week. No payment since the 8th of Jan. This may actually explain the lack of acknowledgement of his daughters 18th birthday last week...not even a text message to her. This morning I bit the bullet and sent him a text gently reminding him that even a belated would do her some good. He may have fallen off the face of whatever earth he's on.

Frankly, I am scared

I am already exhausted thinking about it

I am just about done

Posted by Em @ 12:17 am EDT | Permalink | 3 Comments

Feeling Words

Disempowered
Fractured
Insatiable
Paralyzed
Raw

Jubilant
Revitalized
Luminous
Impassioned
Captivated

Posted by Em @ 8:02 pm EDT | Permalink | 4 Comments

Update

Ok, there is no seizure activity, so no epilepsy. Most of the bizarre labwork is still pending, to see if its lupus or Wilsons disease or other obscure syndromes. We had a psyche consult and it could be post traumatic stress conversion disorder, although she cant seem to recall any traumatic event. The psyche doc we saw today is confident that if it is a psychiatric manifestation of some sort, that she will bet fixed rather quickly. Started her on a med this eve, and depending on her response (right arm still uncontrollable) is whether she can go to school tomorrow. The psych doc is not certain that it IS a psych thing, no one is sure abut anything except it has to get resolved asap. He is considering hypnotism, actually, as this is a pretty severe phyical thing and SOMETHING needs to be done. Will let you know.

Posted by Em @ 8:43 pm EDT | Permalink | 11 Comments