Unsure.....

writing from the icu again. I am not sure if its better for me to see my dad somewhat alert or not. it makes it hard to talk to him when he keeps asking if he's gonna die. what can you tell a person that is actually on their death bed? all we keep telling him is that they're working on him to make him better. its almost like watching a child. they can't do anything for themselves and anything you do won't make them do it. you want to smile and laugh and joke and get them out of bed.....but they can't get up no matter how hard they try. the man that lays in his bed now is finishing his job in life and that is to make me a complete man able to handle anything. you don't really know what I mean till you experience it. one day when you have to deal with this in your own lives....it will make complete sense even if you did hear it from MJ. ;) man I'm exhausted.....but.....its my time to not be exhausted.

Posted by MikeJames on Thu Jul 3, 2008 @ 3:30 pm EDT | 7 Comments