Out of the closet and into the world.

This is something I've been struggling to share for quite some time.  My wife, kids, and the rest of the family know, and for the most part, are supportive.  My feelings started back when I was a kid, but I figured it was just a kid thing, then in my final year or so of college it blossomed.  I figured it was just a phase, as did my wife, God knows she still wishes it was just a phase.  It started out as just a little "experimenting" and boredom, or so we thought.  Soon things started to get out of hand  as I was secretly checking stuff out of the library and ordering stuff online without telling her.  Soon our checkbook was getting smaller, and she wasn't getting all of my attention, so she knew something was up.  She caught me looking at questionable web sites, but I told her I was just goofing off or had nothing better to do.  However, it was out of the bag when she beat me to the mailbox one day.  She confronted me when I got home.  Of course I denied the allegations, I mean, who wouldn't?  Suprisingly, she wasn't too upset.  However, she didn't want the kids to know.  Oh, they're too young, she said.  Don't try to influence them.  NO, they're my God damn kids too, and I will tell them.  I told them, and what do you know, they still love me.  They still think I'm cool.  We actually do even more stuff together now because of our talk.  Sure they had questions to ask, and don't understand why mom has such an issue with it, but what can you expect, they're 6 & 3.  My 8  month old could care less.  I just hope my friends on here can be supportive of me in this time.

So I guess the first step to "coming out of the closet" is to vocalize.  Well here goes..........I'm a Star Wars fan.  That's right, I read the books, I read the comics, I even play the video games, and yes, that includes BOTH of the Lego Star Wars games.  No, I don't masturbate to pictures of Princess Leia in her iron bakini, but she still looks damn hot in it.  My kids dig Star Wars too.  We have lightsaber fights and everything.  And no, I never let them win.  After all they're only Padawans.

My wife hasn't accepted this, and I don't know if she ever will, but I pray that you guys will accept this, and me for who I truly am.

Posted by AlaskaDad on Thu May 10, 2007 @ 8:17 pm EDT | 6 Comments