Shit!

I'm up late tonight as I'm too riled up to sleep! I take pride in the fact that im a good soldier, a good NCO, and a good person (for the most part). I've worked very hard in the Army to be good at what I do and have a very good reputation. Now all that may be coming to an end at least in some people's eyes. As some of you read in my "Asshole Of The Year" blog I was seeing someone behind my wife's back. She was also in the Army, not my soldier but not my rank either. From now on this other girl will be named Chell. Chell and I agreed on a story for when we are at drill about what happened so as not to harm either's reputation or put either career in jepordy. Maybe I'm paraniod but I'm starting to think Chell is not sticking to this agreement and making up things so she can look good and I can look foolish. Basically I think she is saying " He though I was leading him on and he took it all wrong". Well to me thats the wrong fucking answer! I dont care that Chell said she told her fiancee the whole story. They are still happy together and she acts like it never happened. I don't know of a man that could take it in stride like that. What I can't stand is having soldiers look at me like I'm stupid. Like I can't tell the difference between kissing someone and me thinking they were leading me on. I have much more to lose than she does and I'm transfering companies to ease the situation at home. All I know is we are both guilty and I came clean about it, if she didn't thats fine. Just don't drag me down because you're scorned and heartbroke. I don't know what it's called for girls but FUCKING SACK UP YOU STUPID BITCH AND TAKE YOUR FUCKING MEDICINE. Enough of the rant for tonight.