Family....

Well this will be a somber entry, I found out on Saturday that my dad went into to cardiac arrest and was sent by ambulance to HArris in Downtown Fort Worth.  He was placed in the Cardiac Intensive Care Unit.  The doctors say that he has 1 valve that is not functioning at all, and two that are functioning at 50% each. I wanted to go see him, but at the same time I didn't.  Matt convinced me that I should go, because if something happened I would regret not going and seeing him one last time.  So I ventured off to Downtown Fort Worth by myself, which for anyone who knows me, knows I am no directional. LOL.  Of course I got lost.  But I finally made it, and when I got there he looked so horrible I couldn't believe it.  I stayed and we talked, about a lot of things..some important, some from the past. I realized after I had been there for a few hours that I just couldn't leave.  I stayed all night. The doctors told me that he should recover, however he will be on lots of heart medicine and he will have to change his lifestyle a bit.  I hope he is around to really enjoy his grandkids.  We haven't always had the most solid relationship, but at the end of the day we are family and when worset comes to worset...he was there to lend a hand if he had the means to.  Seeing him in the hospital bed, made me realize how important family really is and to have a strong connection between your loved ones.  My family is not perfect, but for the most part we do what we can when it is needed.  I haven't been on the giving end of that in some time.  Trying to get back our lives back on track.  Its hard when you get behind, seems like you are never gonna catch up.  I guess you pay what you can and hopefully the rest will work out.

Sharon is upset with me, but I can see where her anger is justified to a point.  I should have called her and told her that my dad was in bad shape and that I didn't want to leave him.  I take full responsibility for not communicating, what can I say, I fucked up. But to be honest, I knew that she knew he was in CICU, and I guess I figured that she would know that I was at the hospital...I wasn't thinking clearly, all I could think about was him laying there in that hospital bed and never seeing him walk out of that room again.  I had a lot to say, and I listened a lot.  My dad has by no means been a parental role model.  Sometimes I think that he just wasn't meant to have children.  He was very selfish in his ways.....most of the time.  Then out of the blue, he would suprise you and come and fix your A/C, your back door and a kitchen cabinet. LOL.  He has good in him, sometimes it is just hard to see on the surface.  I hope that he has a full recovery, and lives to be 80+.  Maybe this is the wake up call he needed.  I know he has good intentions, he has one of the kindest hearts you could imagine, that is when it is exposed.  He would bend over backward to help you if it was with in his power.  HE has his faults and his weaknesses, which is where we lose most of him too.  I just pray and hope that he makes it through this and becomes a stronger individual...I want to see more of the "Good, caring, loving, Tony" Hopefully I will get my chance.

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Good Bye For Now...

I am making it official, I won't be around much for a while.  Kurupt and I are working out some differences and we need to be focused on our family and do not need influences from outside of our relationship.  I love him with every ounce of my being, and we have worked hard to make it to the 9 year mark. I am not going to give up on us that easily.  I know he loves me, and we will overcome this hurdle,  For the first time ever, I find myself giddy over seeing him again.  I get butterflies in my stomach, I can't wait for him to touch me, even the slightest sends chils over my body.  I know that with out a doubt that we will weather this storm and be stronger because of it.  Because I am focusing on my family I will not be on here much, I am sure that is no suprise since I have been non exsistant for quite sometime.  I will keep my account and return when I am able.

Thank you,

Kitten

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Update..

Well thought I would pop in an update.  I have been so busy latley that I have barley had time to turn around..LOL.  I interviewed for a permenant position and we were supposed to find out today.  I didn't get the offer, so I guess I will have to try again.  But I am not discouraged.  There will be more openings and the more interviews I do the easier they will be.  See it is a structured interview, it doesn't matter how well you actually do your job, it is based on the score you receive when you interview.  Which is driving me nuts!!  I did pretty good this time, so it is getting easier.  Hopefully the internet will be back on this week, I tried to call them tonight but they were already closed. *sniff* Anyway, hope to see you guys online this week!!!! 

I am so ready to play a little rainbow......I am having withdrawals...LOL.  I miss my vegas time....and I miss my fairy dust!!!

 

Meow

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Laptop Crisis

Well I thought I would get on my husbands computer and blog a bit so that I could explain why I haven't been online. I did something really stupid and jacked up my laptop. It was my own fault, and know I have to see if it can be repaired or buy a new one. It sucks. Also, our internet has been off but should be back on next week. So no Xbox Live either....I am pissed, mostly at myself but that is the way it goes. I can't really check this site at work for obvious reasons..so I have been MIA for a while I should be back online and posting crazy shit soon. Please don't kick me out of any clans, I will be back, promise! Kitten Kisses meow

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Health Effects of Masterbation

I thought I would share as I am sure most of us are unaware of the dangers. LOL.

http://www.steadyhealth.com/how_to_avoid_and_cure_chronic_masterbation__t85777.html

First and foremost I would like to clarify some misconceptions about masterbation: 1. Masterbation in excess is dangerous. Frequent masturbation and ejaculation stimulate acetylcholine/parasympathetic nervous functions excessively, resulting in the over production of sex hormones and neurotransmitters such as acetylcholine, dopamine and serotonin. Abundant and unusually amount of these hormones and neurotransmitters can cause the brain and adrenal glands to perform excessive dopamine-norepinephrine-epinephrine conversion and turn the brain and body functions to be extremely sympathetic. In other words, there is a big change of body chemistry when one excessively pratices masturbation.

2. Have you ever wondered why you do not last long enough when having sex? Well , if you program your system to hurry up for years by masterbating, how can you expect it to last? This is simple yet seem complicated to 90% of men. Remember the first few months when u started masterbating, you were not experiencing premature ejaculation! It only starting after you got the little guy rushing all the time. STOP now and it will slowly recover.

3. I do not believe in moderate mastering, I do believe that one would have to wait until the body naturally discharges semen in sleep and etc. Because moderate masterbation can lead to habitual and chronic masterbation.

4. Medications wether herbal or non herbal are not healthy to consume for the purpose of masterbation recovery therefore the best medicine is FASTING, eat 40-60% less food. Instead of eating a whole hamburger eat half and eat a salad with it. Fast for a week and refrain from eating from dusk to dawn and you will enjoy the benefits. Food contains high levels of animal hormones which in turn increase your hormones.

5. Masterbation does affect your vision and yes it is the leading cause of hairloss in men and androgenic alopecia. DHT or dihydratetestosterone is the leading cause of hairloss in men. By masterbating and changing your body chemistry you are overproducing testosterone and therefore its byproduct DHT. DHT clings to hair follicles and weakens them. NOTE: Majority of men who are bald also wear corrective lenses, indicative of habitual or chronic masterbation.

6. Please remember that exercise can help, however it must only be cardiovascular and must ensure enough calories are lost to make room for the breakdown of proteins to amino acids. This ensures that whatever foods consumed are used up. This is one of the best solutions.

7. Last but not least please remember that we are bombarded with sexual images in the media and encouraged to engage in sexual activity. Avoid exposure to such images as it would cause arousal and eventually lead to masterbation in the absence of a partner.

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