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My personality type

Recently a friend and I were discussing my shyness. He didn't believe I was shy. And told me he thought I was prolly actually extroverted. NOT. So, I took the personality test again, just to see if there were any changes since the last time. Not really...

Your Type is

ISFJ

Introverted: 67%

Sensing: 50%

Feeling: 75%

Judging: 44%

Qualitative analysis of your type formula

You are:

distinctively expressed introvert
moderately expressed sensing personality
distinctively expressed feeling personality
moderately expressed judging personality

Introverted Sensing Feeling Judging

ISFJs are characterized above all by their desire to serve others, their "need to be needed." In extreme cases, this need is so strong that standard give-and-take relationships are deeply unsatisfyhing to them; however, most ISFJs find more than enough with which to occupy themselves within the framework of a normal life. (Since ISFJs, like all SJs, are very much bound by the prevailing social conventions, their form of "service" is likely to exclude any elements of moral or political controversy; they specialize in the local, the personal and the parctical.)

ISFJs are often unappreciated, at work, home, and play. Ironically, because they prove over and over that they can be relied on for their loyalty and unstinting, high-quality work, those around them often take them for granted--even take advantage of them. Admittedly, the problem is sometimes aggravated by the ISFJs themselves; for instance, they are notoriously bad at delegating ("if you want it done rigtht do it yourself"). And although they're hurt by being treated like doormats, they are often unwilling to toot their own horns about their accomplishments because they feel that although they deserve more credit than they're getting, it's somehow wrong to want any sort of reward for doing work (which is supposed to be a virtue in itself). (And as low-profile Is, their actions don't call attention to themselves as with charismatic Es.) Because of all of this, ISFJs are often overworked, and as a result may suffer from psychosomaticv illnesses.

In the workplace, ISFJs are methodical and accurate workers, often with very good memories and unexpected analytic abilities; they are also good with people in small-group or one-on-one situations because of their patient and genuinely sympathetic approach to dealing with others. ISFJs make pleasant and reliable co-workers and exemplary employees, but tend to be harried and uncomfortable in supervisory roles. They are capable of forming strong loyalties, but these are personal rather than institutional loyalties; if someone they've bonded with in this way leaves the company, the ISFJ will leave with them, if given the option. Traditional careers for the ISFJ include: teaching social work, most religious work, nursing, medicine (general practice only), clerical and secretarial work of any kind, and some kinds of administrative careers.

While their work ethic is high on the ISFJ priority list, their families are the centers of their lives. ISFJs are extremely warm and demonstrative within the family circle--and often possessive of their loved ones, as well. When these include Es who want to socialize with the rest of the world, or self-contained ITs, the ISFJ must learn to adjust to these behaviors and not interpret them as rejection. Being SJs, they place a strong emphasis on conventional behavior (although, unlike STJs, they are usually as concerned with being "nice" as with strict propriety); if any of their nearest and dearest depart from the straight-and-narrow, it causes the ISFJ major embarrassment; the closer the relationship and the more public the act, the more intense the emnbarrassment (a fact which many of their teenage children take gleeful advantage of). Needless to say, ISFJs take infinite trouble over meals, gifts, celebrations, etc., for their loved ones--although strong Js may tend to focus more on what the recipient should want rather than what they do want.

Like most Is, ISFJs have a few, close friends. They are extremely loyal to these, and are ready to provide emotional and practical support at a moment's notice. (However, like most Fs they hate confrontation; if you get into a fight don't expect them to jump in after you. You can count on them, however, to run and get the nearest authority figure.) Unlike with EPs, the older the friendship is, the more an ISFJ will value it. One ISFJ trait that is easily misunderstood by those who haven't known them long is that they are often unable to either hide or articulate any distress they may be feeling. For instance, an ISFJ child may be reproved for "sulking," the actual cause of which is a combination of physical illness plus misguided "good manners." An adult ISFJ may drive a (later ashamed) friend or SO into a fit of temper over the ISFJ's unexplained moodiness, only afterwards to explain about a death in the family they "didn't want to burden anyone with." Those close to ISFJs should learn to watch for the warning signs in these situations and take the initiative themselves to uncover the problem.

Well, there ya go. Ok, so I am not as introverted as I used to be, but I am, and always will be, ISFJ. That is me. So this description fits me pretty well. Scarey, huh! And, my profession of choice is one that is listed for this personality type. So, I guess I am on track..

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After the Holiday

Today was the "after the holiday" mess at work. Chemo cannot wait, and, just cuz it's a holiday, one still needs to get their treatment. Soooo, we doubled up today. Those that were supposed to get treated yesterday, came today. And those that were supposed to come today, did, as well. omg, chaos and stress were rampant. No orders, no charts, walk-ins, etc. The pharmacy was so backed up that people that had waited over an hour for a chair then had to wait for their chemo. Growly patients, irritable nurses, doctors, well, we won't say about the doctors. Protocol nurses??? I had a lot of hate for one in particular today. "I'll be there in 10 minutes with her order." Well, I was too busy to check, and I never saw her. Finally, someone walked up to me with the orders in her hand. WTF? Where did you find those? In the back room on the table. Chaos.

I actually got out on time (almost) and now I am at home in my cave. Wonder what my boys are up to.......

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Today is.....ok

It is the 1st of September already! Labor day, in America. I am off work and so are most of my buds. Lately I have been in a sorta pissy mood, but a couple of very good friends (the best!) are doing a good job of reminding me who I am. Yes, I am older than most of them. But, some of them are sooo wise! You know who you are... No, I am not ready to rip off the primary bandaid, but, maybe the other one? It's hard, but, I can do anything! I don't want to hear sorry....means nothing to me. I want respect and to be able to make choices. In other words, the control freak is starting to pop out again. She is actually my evil twin. Or maybe I am the evil twin. Dunno. But, I will choose my destiny, my fate. Sometimes I am glad I am older. Can't say why cuz it doesn't make sense, but..... This is what I want..... I want another BBB hug, or maybe even.....hmmmmm. I can hang out at the gas station, too. My friend. Does any of this make sense? Not supposed to. I am just, well, ok... Know what I mean, jelly bean?

Not just my mood, but my theme song....

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Sunday Morning something..

Last night, fortunately for someone, a very dear friend of mine diverted me away from my anger and gave me a few virtual hugs. And, a good talking to! So, it is Sunday morning, and I spent my alone time looking at youtube videos. What a gas! I watched some very, um, educational stuff. Saw some great music vids. There is one I am saving for later. Ahhh, some of those old tunes...

I haven't been doing much laughing lately. And, I've been drinking a little more. Those of you that know what a cheap drunk I am can perhaps appreciate what that means. Last night I told all my boys that I luved them. One at a time. Well, most of them. And the response? Nice.....all except Chris that simply said "she's drunk". He luvs me the most! LOL Well, maybe I was, maybe I wasn't. Who cares? I luv being luved, and last night I was. Thx, guys.

Now, this isn't the mood for the day. I am still trying, but my mood remains, icky. That's a medical term, ya know. But, even tho I think this has been done before, it made me laugh. That's a good thing.

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Restless, again

I am very, very restless these days. I guess I'm ready to run away from home, again. Yeh, I know, I went to the LAN and had a great time. Not enuf! I'm looking for something, not sure what, but I will have a time finding it! Good or bad? Dunno.... It's a 3 day weekend starting, well, now..... I have a very strong urge to get in the car tomorrow morning as if I am going to the gym, and just driving.....somewhere. Sometimes I think I cannot solve my dillemmas or even try to be happy unless I am alone. Remember my blog of a few days ago? For me, alone has special meaning. I have time to think, do what I want, solve problems as they come up, without any interference from anyone. But, that is not to say I can't interact with people! But, I want to do it my way, or not at all. Crazy. I want to make my own choices, my own mistakes. I have needs that are overwhelming at times, and I can't even put a name to them. Men get angry, women withdraw. I am good at that. But, I luv attention, too. I know, typical. Today my friend, Beth, gave me a very nice hug, just cuz she felt I needed it. Very nice. And, I did need it. Now, I am going to look for some of what I need......

Mood for today...

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Called into work, not so bad

I got called into work yesterday, cuz they were short. Not bad. I could use the extra money. I had already worked the Monday I never work, as a favor, and he gave me Tuesday off. Mistake! I ended up working anyways. Four days in one week. Yikes! Ask me how I am Friday... But I am off today and have things to do!

So, my very first patient yesterday was someone I dearly luv. She is very sweet (sometimes) and easy to talk to. She asked me what I was planning for my 'next running away from home'. I told her about the LAN, and how great it was. And I told her about the cruise coming up in a couple weeks. She looked at me with concern on her face, and said, "you don't seem too happy about the cruise". Well, I'm not. I didn't plan it. It is at a bad time of year, hurricane season. It costs too much for both cruise and flight. But, it's a family thing....my niece's 5 year anniversary. They were married on a cruise ship with 60 family and friends in attendance. Good times. I feel I have to go this time cuz it is an opportunity to see my brothers and, well, I just have to. That led to a discussion about my marriage. Yeh, she sorta figured that one out pretty quickly. I told her about the age difference between me and hubby and some other stuff. She was shocked! "But you are so young!" Thank you for that, M! I also told her I had other interests to keep me occupied, and she said "you go, girl". Nice. It's funny how she saw thru me so easily. Without actually saying anything with words, we had an understanding right there in the middle of clinic. Sweet. Somehow, she knows me....

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Alone vs. Lonely

Definitions:

Alone: isolated from others; "could be alone in a crowded room"; "was alone with her thoughts"; "I want to be alone"

Lonely: marked by dejection from being alone; "felt sad and lonely"; "the loneliest night of the week"; "lonesome when her husband is away"; "spent a lonesome hour in the bar"

Remarkable how similar these two words are, and so vastly different. I am rarely alone. Well, that's not entirely true. When I am in my "cave" I guess I am alone, sorta. Hubby is downstairs watching TV, I am upstairs playing whatever game or doing what I am doing right now. I sometimes think I would like to be permanently alone, that is, not dependent on anyone for anything. I like the idea. I can do what I want, go where I want, see who I want. Nice. I have been alone twice recently. One was my road trip. The other was the Chi LAN. Oh, I was with people. At the LAN, a LOT of people. But I was gloriously alone. It rocked.

Then there is lonely. Yes, I am lonely a lot. Or lonesome. Unfortunately, I have no idea what or who I am lonely for. It is just a mild sadness that I am missing something or someone, and I don't know who or what.

Moody again.....

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They're Back!

The students are back. College students, that is. Chapel Hill is alive and bursting at the seams. I ride the bus back and forth to work, and it is on a main route for student housing. Yikes! We have this huge thing that has been nick named the caterpillar bus. It is a double bus that holds a gazillion people. So, why is it always stuffed and overflowing? Dunno. But, it certainly gets cozy for those that are standing in the aisle.

Chapel Hill reminds me of being in a small European city or village. People walking around. Little nooks and crannies that are interesting. Nice. oooooo, time for me to be somewhere else.

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Don't worry....

Sometimes life sucks and you just have to deal. I have heard about "bad" things happening to friends. Sometimes I get jerked around, too. Who doesn't? This is just for you, my friend......

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We are good. It's ok. Don't worry, be happy!

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Saturday morning protest and whatever

I am protesting today! No gym! Very unusual, cuz Saturday is my do or die day for the gym. It 's the day I weigh in and do my whole regimen...treadmill and weight circuit. Well, I missed last Saturday cuz I was at the LAN. Now I feel lazy and I've got a headache! Hmmm, those headaches are getting to be more and more often. Drugs usually work. What do I have????

w00t! BBB is back from wherever he was and I got to "play" with him last night. Well, not really. "Good" PC crashed and it's being fixed, so oooold, slowwww, PC was his only choice. So, we just got to chat. Joe is back from fishing, too. Great pics, hollywood. I guess I embarrassed my secret pal sufficiently. Got an email from him, too! Possible visit from Dave in a couple months. Life is good!

It occurs to me that almost all of my friends are men. Yeh, I think I have talked about this before. But I like men! I was raised in a large, dysfunctional family. Well, dysfunctional is relative, I guess. I was the baby. My older sister, the paranoid schizophrenic, raised me, but it was my brothers that were there for me. I hung out with them and learned to play with the big boys right from the start. 3 out of 6 of my brothers and sisters have either a physical or mental disability. It was normal for my "playmate" to be my mentally retarded sister with a "mental age" of 6. We played cards and board games endlessly. I always said she was my favorite little sister, and she would pout and say "i'm your BIG sister". True dat. My oldest sister had polio when she was 8 years old. The rest of us were immunized, but, it was too late for her. She is a paraplegic. That, too, seemed normal to me. So, like I said, dysfunctional is relative. I saw it as normal.....

Back to friends. I have said before, I am a better friend to others than they are to me. Why? Dunno. Prolly cuz I am willing to give my all, and they aren't. My real life social circle is pretty small. I have Beth and Michelle. Good friends that I work with. Beth is nuts, and we are soooo alike. Weird to see someone acting like me, but sooo much more over the top! I luv her. Michelle tells me all her secrets. I luv her, too. Especially cuz now I know all her secrets. The rest? There's my daughter, her hubby and my 2 gbabies. Really luv them! Then, there is this website, 2old2p....especially my clannies. I never knew I would make such great friends with so many MEN! Again, I luv men. Y'all know who you are! And gals, Jeepy, Meemoos, Icey, and the others, sorry not to mention everyone!

Where is this going? Hell, I dunno. Just feeling a little whimsical this morning. So, mood for the day...

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Dreaming again

I am having a hard time making decisions right now. Unfortunately, it snuck into my subconscious and i dreamed all night long last night. And, I had a hard time getting to sleep in the first place. First of all, I'm reading this James Patterson book about a serial rapist, and that is prolly not the best thing to be doing just before going to bed. I also had a very nice conversation with a friend, then read his blog and, yikes! I had all that to think about, too. I am missing a couple people that haven't been around for a while. Contact or no contact?? Make a decision....later. So, the dream. i can't even remember it any more, but I know I was awake every few minutes feeling bad about something, not even sure what. Oh, there is this...

Happy Birthday Secret Pal

Hmmmm, poor kitty.....

Ha! The mysterious secret pal. Wouldn't you like to know!

What is that kitty doing, anyways???

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Stolen Link

Stolen from MJ's blog.

www.2old2play.com/blog-26443-452.html

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Playing with my boys & getting beat up!

Man, i am soooo moody tonight. I've been playing magic with my boys. We are all deck testing for the next clan league. Funny, we test so much, we know each others decks by the time the league matches start. I thought I had a great deck! in solitaire it crushed my "opponent" in 5-6 turns. Very nice. Well, a real opponent actually fights back. Blah! So, I was spanked, crushed, and thrown out with the dishwater. Booooo. I told them I wasn't joining the league this time. Course, I always say that. But the format is very tough. I dunno. They seem to have forgotten rule #1: don't beat up on the captain. /sigh

To my secret pal......????????????

That's all. I've been beaten up enough for today.

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Back to normal.......

I have had a couple of days to recuperate from the best party ever. Fortunately, I had Monday and Tuesday off, so here I am feeling almost normal again. I am still high on my experiences....meeting everyone and all the hugs! Hmph, some peeps tried to shake hands! You don't get off that easily! I played a little magic with my boys last night. It was time for me to come home. I missed having them there. I wish I could have brought all of them, but..... So, I hung out with my Helter Skelter guild which was great! I got to play with the big boys. yum!

So, I want everyone to know that I was NOT one of the naked chicks! I was, however, one of the groupies that tried to take MJ down. Him with his little coffee cup full of Jack and coke, easy on the coke. I was told I was hot, more than once. Nice. I was interviewed for the podcast. First interview I was sober, they lost that one, then......the second one I think I giggled a lot. Luv U, Bubba! I won one of the raffles. Good stuff. I was caught on webcam numerous times. Yikes! And, I was there to hear "and the prize goes to.....Soup!!" I told doodi I luved him. I think I made him blush. Or something.

I am now going to start planning a bday present for a special friend. Awwww, back to real life.....

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A few pics.....

I was so busy having fun, I didn't really take that many pics. These are a few that turned out, well, fairly well. I never look good...

me and Dan

doodi my hero

The nasty waiter that kept calling me grandma--almost decked him.....

is that jason troy? himself?

Jeep, Tara, me with the bounce your bawls sticker

Oh, man, is that me? partying with a rock star?

Yikes! The groupies got him!

Those are prolly the most interesting pics I took. The rest are gamers with "the look". Oh yeh, that's concentration. lol

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